Thursday, February 03, 2005

Crap!hope internet explorer dun illegal op again halfway writing my stuff!!

Work WOrk WOrk!
Feeling like the ppl in wc3,RON,those little ppl in the rts games,neverending work.....
Does any1 tink im a veri hardworking ppl? it seems today,(feb2,wed), i showed to the other promoters that im one,when i refused dinner wif them to finish my work(stacking some stuff) hmm....
had dinner later myself,fin it in abt 10mins n when back to work again... one of the guys walk past, n was astonished i am starting working again,as i told i just had dinner awhile ago...lol...he asked me to relax....haha....feel so diff now....lol...no1 had asked me to relax b4..certaintly not my mother...why my jc ppl tink im the lazest ppl ard....snoozing all the time.....haha

feel so out of the group of the other promoters,all still studying or waiting for "o" levels results,feeling weird being one step ahead...feeling old n more mature haha...well they were chatting n joking ard on the job...i kept a standard of work in mind,not chatting much ...hhaha tink they see me too hardworking scared or awed dun dare to tok wif me....dun hav much to tok anyway ,nuthing in common though left btw us only a few years.....

tink they feel got more time ahead of them,im short of being a legal adult now,(got 1 guy same age as me,carlsberg guy,but dun tink he tinking same as me...he ite ,diff exp from us,not looking down on him...just weary...)
we now have to decide university,career and all the crap stuff...no time left......after ns...study...then work liao..no more student days left.....must act like a not so young adult.....
known my sec sch mates for 7-8 yrs..liao...pri sch buddy more than 10 yrs...ahaha some more years become middle aged liao...no more idol....celeb gossip,or BGR chitchat n wondering abt the affairs of puberty...now wat...bills....transport fees...CPF,medishield,,marriage (lol too early),all the crap....
now the gatherings we have almost not like b4,,,where we dicussed all hte teen stuff ,BGR*again*....schwork(dont see so much now,compared to working) teachers being crappy,lessons lectures.....now the dicussions are done wif a pang of doubt of our future.....always ask"wat u doing now,future?" "wat are yur plans?" " career choice?" "signing bonds?" "further studies?" "how yur parents?" "im depended on to help out the family,," "wats yur pay ? " ahaha
last time,student days...lol
"wanna pongtang?" copy homework...tok cock...mug for studies....becoming memories,sch life...rather pre-tertiary sch life....wonder hows university like? must make a note to ask the girls nxt time.....
everyone looking less kiddish now...looking more weary n tired (of life?) always looking for a way to sidestep our next path in life.....
feeling like im doing odd jobs at home,being asked to do everything...clean floor,help brother ,help mother,find job....dun play com...go sleep....come home early,dun sleep late...all being asked within a minute....not enuff time even for my brain synapses to reach my toe to ask it to stretch.....
how i envy the schkids now....without worry..(not so much)....without much uncertainty,they still got sch to finish....can play ard....fool ard....
Come end Feb,early March....must play dice again...Life Event Roll.....

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